Joe woke up to his parents yelling, it seemed his parents got home, he got dressed, did his hair and went out the front door very quietly so his parents didn't hear him.

Joe got on his bike and just rode it, mindlessly until he was at the mall, ¨a place for old and young with fun¨ Joe read in a sign right in front of the mall, he didn't like the slogan but it isn't terrible, he has seen worse on national television.

Joe put a lock on his bike and then he walked in the mall, seeing the crowd, well he didn't he tried to ignore the happiness. As he was walking he saw Ansel talking with… With miles just before he could get away Miles waved and walked over to him. He wasn't ready for this encounter but he also didn't  want to scare Miles away for good, so he just talked to them with pain in his heart.

"Hey" Ansel said, awkwardly in the silence, Miles and Joe stayed quiet.

As Miles tried to talk Joe gave up and told him he wasn't ready to talk, or at least that's what Joe imagined what he would do but he just stayed quite and let Miles talk

Joe for what it's worth i'm sorry but you cant hang in this-

Miles took a moment to breathe and continued.

This mood of yours.

As Miles said that he could see Joe took that personal, then Joe just walked away without saying a word as he left he saw Jake, Jake Morrison he is what you would call a bully, and he always had it out for Joe for, lets just say, thinking differently about boys than other people, Jake looked like he wanted to talk, but Joe knew better, so Joe ran, and ran, tears filling his eyes as he sat down against a tree in the woods… Wait? The woods? Joe looked around now realising he's lost, as he just sat back down still crying a little bit.

Why am I different he asked in his head. Why won't people accept me he continued to think.

but then he got up and walked back.. Or at least he thought it was the right way, no yeah it's the right way the tree was the other way he sat down in front so it should lead him back… Then he saw the mall, and he walked home, he wiped the tears away with his hoodie and walked home, and got to bed

Ansel wondered what was going on with you as he walked away silently, so he decided to ask Miles, but Miles said it wasn't his place to tell.

Miles knew he couldn't tell Ansel without Joe's consent, or at least a reason to tell Ansel, but it wasn't about him, it was about Joe and his feelings. Im sorry Ansel i just, i just can't, its Joe's secret not mine

Miles… Ansel began. Either you tell me or this relationship is over, we don't keep secrets from each other we promised..

The first month Miles and Ansel were together it was really fun! But after that it kept looking like a choir you had to keep up with like a dog so it doesn't die in this term i mean the relationship.

¨Ansel don't do this.¨

¨Then i guess i have my anwser.¨¨ Ansel said as he walked away crying but Miles didn't see the tears.

¨NO, don't go, i need you.¨

miles said, or at least it's what he wanted to say, instead he just froze up.

Miles let out a small tear before walking home…

Miles walked down the street, his eyes looking at the joyfulness and happiness, the same feeling he had just yesterday that felt like ages ago. How could Joe survive feeling no joyfulness or happiness… Miles looked at his watch and it read:¨06:38¨Had he walked all night? Miles didn't  have a way to answer that question, guess it's time to watch the night before christmas tonight. He said aloud to himself as he chuckled and opened the front door.

Before him stood the parents of Miles, they looked disappointed at him as they ordered him to go to his room.. Miles compiled for now.

after an hour he sneaked out through his window, he needed to talk to Joe, how could he live like that.

after walking he thought more about Ansel, if only he would have yelled after him…