I have a Crunchyroll account.
and haven't used it yet.
God why am I like this.
I want to use it, but I can't make myself idk why. AAAAAAAAAA
And this is the reason I never talk about my issues with my parents.
They're. The. Same. FUCKING ISSUES EVERY FUCKING DAY.
I can't draw well, I can't make myself like my own work, I can't change anything I do.
I'm sick of the Punkel drama.
Like my god. I know nothing about it, but I'm sick of fucking hearing it every. Fucking. Day.
I'm getting more and more irritable easily.
I just, feel pissed off 24/7 now... there's moments when I'm normal, but it's few and far between
Okay. WHY AM I BETTER AT DRAWING ON PHONE THAN ON MY DRAWING TABLET????
Also, HOW TF DO YOU DRAW EYELASHES???
Why in gods name, do I have the urge to search for an anime...
But can't make myself do it????????
https://gamejolt.com/p/why-do-i-bother-talking-when-it-s-my-same…
This "dream" is just shattering as I think about it. It'll never happen, and I know it.
Why do I bother talking when it's my same fucking issues.
"WhY cAn'T i DrAw"
"No MaTtEr WhAt I dO, mY sTyLe StAyS tHe SaMe"
"EvErY hUmAn I dRaW lOoKs LiKe CrAp
All that repetitive bullshit over and over again.
The same fucking issues.
Every. Fucking. Day.
I'm getting burnt out from drawing again.
Fuck.
I can't with this crap anymore.
Every piece I make I hate, I haven't finished something in so long, and it's pissing me off.
I WANT TO FINISH SOMETHING FOR YOU GUYS/GALS
But I literally can't.
Fuck me.
I can piece together the FNAF lore. but can't put my one braincell to work at drawing.
