this post was supposed to be a funny joke, but it turned into something depressing...
if I can't live without Internet... I shouldn't live at all...
Me doubting myself in spoiler...
why does it matter... what's the point... no one's gonna care... no one is going to remember... i don't belong anywhere... it doesn't matter... it's too late... I ruin everything... i don't deserve anything... I hate myself... what if it doesn't work out... what if people get upset with me... what if I do something wrong by accident... what if I make a mistake... what if I don't continue... why do I exist...
thoughts keep getting into my head...
I don't want these feelings...
I don't know...
feelings are stupid...
i want a hug......
sometimes I'm like, I'm going to do it right now... immediately starts doing something else or walks for a bit... what am I doing? why am I not doing anything? i don't know... the weird part is that I feel normal when I do this. i don't understand anything...
and sometimes when I do, do it, I take hours... for something small... like a singular line or using the bucket tool for coloring... I don't understand how this happens...
i wish I knew how to shade normally instead of using the bucket tool...
sorry... i don't mean to make people sad or mad...
it's ok, don't worry. nothing bad's gonna happen, I'm fine... I just need to let go... or whatever it's called... let it out?
this is the worst (first half of this) month of my life... but it did get better at the 17th day... the day before was awful... this day was ok... i hope it gets better...
I wasn't posting anything for a while because I wanted that Katress drawing to be my 100th post... I thought it was fitting because it was art that I took a really long time on... and I like cats too.
Katress is also my favorite Pal from Palworld, even though i didn't play it...
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