Hello! I'm choosing to make this post as essentially just my final public thoughts regarding the situation. This is something that I have been ruminating on for some time, but I figure that making this post wouldn't really do any harm.

This will also most likely be my last post on Game Jolt. I'll go more into detail on it later in the post, but the simple explanation is that I just don't really have any reason to remain on this site.

I wish to also add that I am making this post purely out of my own volition. Nobody else is involved whatsoever, and these are simply things that I wish to say myself.

I wanted to open with addressing my accountability in the situation. I've learned over the previous weeks of numerous critiques of the document, but probably the biggest is the failure of taking proper accountability throughout a large amount of it.

I largely take the blame for this--I wrote the majority of passages in the document regarding taking collective accountability, failing to make our apologies clear. As well, I did not take accountability in my personally-written section.

For this reason, I would like to properly apologize for my wrongdoings here. I am sorry for the mishandling of suggestive content in my private server, I should not have allowed discussions or individuals under seventeen to have access to such channels. I am also sorry for the mishandling of Syren's removal in the Smallbrain Discord server. While I maintain I did not have a part in the decision and only learned of it after it had happened, I should have properly recognized the concerns with Syren's mental health and should have taken them more seriously.

And while this only came up after the document, I would also like to make a proper apology for the section of it regarding Mac. The conversation it centered around was indeed one I had put pressure on Mac into having before she was ready, and was one that she requested I kept between us. Truthfully, if it weren't for revisions by other people, that section would have been even more invasive than it ended up being, and that's entirely my fault. So, once more, I am sorry for it.

For the second half of this post, I wish to go into basically all my other thoughts I care to share publicly. This part will be a lot more disorganized, so take that as a heads-up.

To begin with--my departure from Game Jolt. Truthfully this is something I've intended to do for a long time at this point. This site has slowly but surely transitioned into a profit-first platform, actively punishing creators who speak out against its problems. It is simply not a space I wish to remain on for creating games.

Five Nights at Kirby's has, for a long time, been the only thing keeping me on the platform, due to its significant presence of FNAF fans. But with that game's cancellation and my lack of plans for creating any new FNAF fan games, I do not have much of a reason to stay, especially because of this situation.

Secondly, I guess I want to talk about how I wish to proceed from this situation. I've recognized numerous mistakes and fuck-ups that I've made in this situation, and truthfully I would not be surprised if I recognize more that I have made later down the road.

But I do not wish to harp on this situation. I do genuinely wish to improve on myself and not make these mistakes again, and I do not think lingering on the ordeal will do any good with that. If I don't move past it, I'll be stuck not actually doing anything to improve myself, which is why I've been so avoidant of the situation publicly and also part of the reason why I am even making this post.

I guess my point is just that I do genuinely want to do better in the future, which is also why I want to move on from this situation.

Truthfully, I thought I would have more to say--and technically, I do. But it's all shit I either don't care to air out publicly or don't want to air out publicly. But I'm fine with that.

If this post does anything, I hope it at minimum can give solace to someone who has in some way been affected by the situation. I do feel bad for those who have looked up to me as an artist and have felt betrayed because of this situation. If anyone like that reads this post, I am sorry. I think I failed at being a good example of someone to look up to, and I truly hope I can do better in the future, even if it's not here.

Comments will be disabled on this post, and I will block freely in regards to this situation (at least on other platforms, I don't really have a purpose for blocking on a site I likely won't use again.) Mainly it's just to get rid of harassment and trolling, something I have dealt with a bit of because of this ordeal.

I don't think I have anything else to add. If, for whatever reason it is needed of me, I may return to this site--my account will remain up and I do not intend on deleting anything. But this should be my last post assuming nothing needed comes up.

Thank you all for the last nearly decade. Genuinely. Perhaps, if any of my previous friends see this, we might one day reconnect or rekindle a friendship. But if not, thank you for sticking by me.