It is 1:22 in the morning, on Christmas Day. Like, I get that I fucked up, right? Like, I understand that concept and all that. But like, holy shit dude?? I'm trying to improve on myself and now I'm being threatened with my own house. And that's REALLY scary, that's fucking horrifying. It's an idea that I hoped wouldn't ever come my way, and I thought I'd be safe for a while. On Christmas, too. I can't possibly express how terrifying this is. Someone sending my own address, holding it over my head to say they'll harm me. I'm afraid of all of this. And, if I could, I wish I could just undo everything I've done, make things easier on myself. At LEAST then I'd have some support if this happened anyways. But I don't, and it's scaring me. I'm 17, I'm still in my last year of high school. This isn't the kind of thing I should be going through at this age. I just want people to leave me alone, let me fix myself, let me get better. I don't want this. I'm scared. I'm trying to live my life. So I'm begging you to just leave me be. Let me alone, let me face my demons without the constant idea that I could get hurt swirling in my head. Please.

I'm going to go lock in on life, thanks.