So, back in 2014, I started suffering from mental health problems. I’d get stuck in my head, and be in a lot of mental pain. Things would be unbearable, and I started feeling suicidal, for the first time ever really. I had to escape from my own head. And I turned to a place which a close friend told me about, Youtube. I’d been watching Tobuscus and had recently found Markiplier (again) through SCP: Containment Breach videos, laughing at his expression when Billy (SCP 173) got stuck in a doorway. My friend had also shown me Drunk Minecraft #13 Latin’s Wrath, which really made me laugh. I began watching these videos whenever I could, and especially at night when my head wouldn’t let me sleep. In 2015 I took a break from my studies so I could get my head in a better place, and during that time I made a fan game for Mark to show my appreciation. But I also made it because, during my time watching Mark, I noticed the community of people watching him. The comments they wrote. The problems they had. It occurred to me that Mark was really helping so many people in so many ways, ways I hadn’t considered. And so many people, including me, started watching Let’s Plays because Amnesia came out in 2012, and were too scared to play it themselves, which is a different sort of helping. I expressed these feelings and observations in the story of my game. Since I released my game, the people in the community have played it, commented on it, helped me with glitches, offered me praise and done let’s plays on YouTube. I owe them a lot. Thank you, everyone.

Things are still crazy in my head, though it comes and goes. 2016 was a bad year, for many reasons. I keep updating the game to keep it fresh and full of cool Markiplier references. I even added a very silly trailer! But this year I’m going to PAX East. I hope Mark will be there, so I can tell him all this. I’m going to ask him to check out my game, but I want him to play it because he wants to. It’s his channel, his choice. I hope I don’t cry too much, I share the weepiness-when-emotional trait with Mark. But when someone has done so much for you, and continues to inspire you - would I have made my first video game if it wasn’t for Mark? Would I have given as much to charity? - then weepiness is perhaps warranted. I just really need to say Thank You. For all the videos. For the livestreams. For the tweets. For the tumblr and facebook posts. For the connection and the escape.

Thank you, Mark. From one human being to another.

Thank you. Thank you so much.

(also, if Mark sees this, sorry my country made you ill!!)