My everyday life is a bit...

Emotionless. Most of the time I have a poker face. Not to look tough or cool or whatever, but because I'm tired asf and sleepy. In fact whenever I get hallucinations (yes they have returned but only visual once) I don't even give a damn. Sometimes I even lash out at them because I've been fed up with a lot of things. There are multiple causes to these that I'm not going to be mentioning.

What I was doing before and what I'm currently doing (involving projects as well)

End of 2024, my mental health was declining. As soon as 2025 started, I tried to do the opposite. Everything was going right, I was going to sleep at a more reasonable time, I later started to workout again, I got invested into my projects, started to manage time a bit more effectively, and ect.

Now I have stopped doing some things. I'm still working out nearly daily and I don't miss a day unless I have a valid reason, and if I do miss a day, I give myself extra sets the next day. I've been making very good progress (mostly my upper body). I'm currently working on 3 programming-related projects; Honomaiwa (My AI Assistant), an up-coming Godot game, and a C++ game that I'm not going to mention since I don't know if I'll publish once I'm done with it or not.

So what's wrong?

Sleep. I've been getting 6.5-5.8 hours of sleep daily. If I'm not wrong, that might actually be worse that what I had before.

When I'm programming. I'm basically doing a job without a payment. Yesterday, I worked for over 4 hours and 50-ish minutes on Python servers and JS and Python requests. That's fine.. ig it's the "when" part that isn't. I came home from school and programmed till 9pm. Then, as of usual I would work on something else leading to 11pm. Then I would play a strategy game which takes all of my remaining brain power. This would take between 1-2 hours. Not to mention homework that I get nearly everyday which sometimes it can be very little, or sometimes quite a lot that's all due tomorrow morning.

In other words, I'm improving my health and then ruining it back to where it was before. Over and over and over again.

Even this post took me 2 days to make.

Just wanted to explain why I haven't posted anything game-related in so long.

Don't forget to Stay Healthy