3 months ago

Chat, I'm feeling weird.

Yesterday my mind just made a *click* and now I'm feeling "more girl" I don't like to say that, I feels wrong, like, girls go through a lot of difficulty, but me... Sndnxklsn idk, I just feels disgusting with this body, I just...+


-hate my face, and everything, I'm afraid of be this me, and people judge myself, I'm afraid of people get away from me and I get alone. I wsnt to change my body, my style, my voice... But I think I'm not trans, when I was 11-12 I thought I was, but after a time, I came back to think that I was a man, and now after years it's happening again. I'm prob gender fluid, but when I think about the private parts, I feels disgusted to have this male thing, and the same when I thought about the female, so like, I'm asexual? Or am I agender?? I'm afraid of relationships too, it will prob get more difficult, but I just need to found the right person. Well, a week ago I was looking at the mirror and think: "Wow, I'm so handsome, look at this body, man" now is like: "Ugh, I hate this shit......."

Well at least, I think my pronoun is anyone, I can't say to use "they" 'cuz in Portuguese we don't have a properly neutral pronoun, like in formal way, and people just don't will let you serious if u say that. So, use everyone. But now, I can say with certainly that I'm Non-Binary, I just don't know what I am.


Thank you all here for being so lovely, I love this community, and I feels really comfortable to say it here. I still need to talk with my family, but I'm shy. At least Ik that they will accept me very well.



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