You guys heard of the Gandi IDE community, and some of you disliked it because of privacy concerns, etc?

We'll I had a whole another reason, it's the community itself.

Why is this? Well, when I was trying to make that Red Riding Hood video game for the Jam, I was unable to submit it and put it to a halt so that I can wait until the next Jam starts. By the time I feel confident, and showed my thumbnail in their Discord server, the most active members became hostile and accused me of cheating the Jam, thinking that I know everything and was trying to pretend to be stupid.

Here's the issue, though, in their Jam page, they never clearly specified about games being worked on prior but said that I am allowed to use existing assets. I even talked to the Admin about it and said that their rules are sometimes not strict, and the Jams are supposed to be fun. So, I thought I was safe, until I was confronted by the other members.

I was also a moderator of the server, and I contributed to the community for about a year already. The server used to be very calming and peaceful, but now, it's just full of clowns and unpleasant jokes that I often feel very uncomfortable with.

I decided I had enough and leave the server for good. I didn't want to go back, and I stopped recommending people to join the server. It's just way too toxic, and you get called out very easily if you are like me.

But I still wasn't safe after I left. My friends offered a session to apologize to each other, but one of the members instead wrote a very long essay talking about how nothing good came out of me during my interactions, how I'm playing a victim, acting like an Anime protagonist, how nobody in the community will ever remember me or my works, and how I have issues "accepting that I'm not special".

That really hurts me in the inside so much that it felt like it was the end of the world, and I literally burst to tears that day. I tried convincing them or telling them how I felt, but obviously, they never cared. It's Discord, and you know how toxic anyone can be.

After the session was over, they signed up to become moderators of the server and the community upvoted them, and they got the moderators roles now. So, that made me felt betrayed and I'm worried about some of the new members there.

The worst part about all of this is that the Gandi admins were completely unaware of all of this, and even if I tried to talk to them in the DMs about this, they never responded back, but instead spent their time in the server instead.

Now obviously, I can't tell you who these people are because I do not want anyone to go and harass them or anything like that, but I want to express my extremely obnoxious experiences I has with the Gandi IDE community and hear your thoughts on this. I haven't told anyone on GameJolt yet, but I think it's time for me to tell you this story. And yes, I'm already aware that it's a community for young people, but for someone who contributes for a whole year and care so much about Gandi IDE, all of this unpleasant experiences just ruins the whole thing.

It's really bad, honestly. And I felt that all of the contributions I made will just simply be forgotten, and making TMA feels such a waste of time.

I'd rather spent my time on GameJolt, my real friends, and focusing on my dream project that I had very high hopes for.

And I'm sorry for sharing something like this. Dramas isn't uncommon, but it can be really heartbreaking to some people, not to mention that anger is the most engaging emotion on the internet.

I have also watched a video about how the internet is evolving, and it doesn't seem to be good at all, so I'm planning to reduce most of my time chatting and go outside and touch grass. That's the only genuine way to be the happiest, not on the internet. Always remember that.