I still feel the desire to work on Miami Traffic IV at times, I am often busy or less motivated however. Life’s been pretty strange lately. I’m afraid I’m losing my mind. I’ve been suffering gradually worsening manic depressive episodes over the years. Lately it’s been the worst ever. I don’t know what’s going on anymore. I’ve desperately been trying to get psychiatric help since a while, the waiting list was quite lengthy. I’m losing contact with reality at times, at the same time my world is starting to chrash down on me. I have no idea what the fuck I am becoming. I think my character is dying. It’s like I’m losing consiousness, all my experiences, passions, what defined me is being replaced by something…vacant.
I don’t want to worry fans of the series too much, but I feel I need to give a heads up for the mental…retardation the dev is suffering.
I will do my best to get out of this damn mist. I haven’t given up.
It does give me some inspiration for the characters. Maybe that’s one good thing about the ordeal.