I've spent almost 10 years making videos/content on YouTube (and other platforms now too... @gamejolt 😉). I LOVE it. If I believed in such a thing as a "calling" this is mine. Creative freedom, my own "boss", crafting/controlling my own future, constantly learning & trying to improve.

And I'm so PROUD of the achievements I've made so far, even though it's nothing crazy. But I'm committed to continuing to pursue this as a career, otherwise haven't I just wasted these past 10 years? I'll continue to grow, change/adapt & learn, having fun while I do it.

Sometimes I doubt myself, & I hear it from people too that say "shouldn't you get a real job", "you should grow up". And I understand. But I can't do that, I can't give up. I won't. I know myself & mentally I just can't turn around & get a "real job" & just be happy.

It's not laziness, I work a full time job worth of hours every week, making the content, working on my ideas etc

I'm constantly thinking of ideas, what can I do next. 24/7.

I stress about these things. But I continue because I LOVE it. I care about it.

When it comes down to money, no I don't earn anywhere near minimum wage for the hours I put into the work on my content. But I trust, believe & bet on myself that I can grow to that stage. I back me.

Anyways sorry for this rambling jumble of thoughts. Sometimes it helps to vent 😂 some of you may or may not agree but these are just my thoughts. Life ain't easy & it ain't simple. We all struggle & question things sometimes. It's reality ❤️ just be you 🙂 thank you all for the support you give me, it really does mean the world to me 🌎 more than you might know.