TW. BULLYING MENTION

Today was the first day of school for me, I had transfered to a completely different school...No one spoke to me as expected (excluding teachers). I was heading back from lunch period and this random chick came up to me and said she remembered me in the middle of the hall and said she remembers me from kindergarten which was a nightmare. (She even f-ing announced it too)

I had went to the school I transferred to previously years back ago and the children there bullied me relentlessly. They shamed me for how I walked improperly (I struggle to walk "normally"). They shamed me for my looks. They shamed me for being myself. (They were mean lil kids). Some of them would get physical and violent. Especially this one group of girls. I thought it was normal (and also because the teacher never did anything) but I used to get BAD PTSD every time I entered that building...

I was convinced no one would recognize me...I don't understand...I'm scared they're going to hurt me again...I tried to play dumb but I was soooo nervous and this girl kept on yelling it like she won the lottery.......

Storytimes: (more like trauma dumping sorry)

It was Valentine's Day and the girls walked up to me with a cute puppy dog plushie toy and they held it over me and said that I can have it if I went into the bathroom (it was an in-class bathroom). I went inside, they turned off the lights and locked me inside. For whatever reason the lock + light switch was outside of the bathroom. I tried my hardest to get out because it was scary in the dark but they were saying mean things and told me to shut up and accept it....I just......sat in the dark.........I waited in the dark as I heard the girls laugh and call over my other peers. I waited and they threw the dog toy in my face and called me stupid as I sat down with my puppy plushie (I still have it somewhere).

Another time, one girl in my class was inviting everyone to her party and was handing out goodie bags for birthday stuff. Everyone got one except me. The birthday girl said this was because I wasn't "good enough" for her birthday or something and gave me a pencil which I cherished until she stole it back and called me filthy... T_T

(I have plenty of school stories like this, it isn't even funny. I am the outcast and the punching bag. I'm sorry to others who have/had to go through the same/similar experiences) 🫂