I'm back on the roll. I have moved on properly, I forgot her face, the sentimentality of the things she did and got me, and how she made me feel. I can put it in the past. I called 988 on Valentine's Day, and well, J learned if you wanna talk to the same person thats not very possible. It ain't therapy. But it's good to hear the stuff they say. But they aren't really the inportant part of the story. I have a new girlfriend. And before romance started between us, she really made me felt seen, and understood with what i was dealing with. She's been through worse and didn't downplay my situation. She's considerate and cares about my boundaries. I consider myself lucky as hell to find her. I actually feel happy again. And honestly, I thought I felt okay, and properly loved and comfortable with the last relationship. I thought I knew real love. And now I see it for real. It's so odd how when you find someone more fit for you, you find the true parts of so many things. I know I said I'll go through the hurt again, and I know I will. I'll hope it's not from her. But if it is, I'll make it, you will too. Each time I thought it wouldn't get better, it did. Please pull through. If you don't think anyone wants you alive, I do. Unless you're unforgivably racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, you get the point. (Had to do a follower cleanse, even if I'm not on consistently) But back to the original point. I got better if that's what you were waiting for. If something bad happens I'll come back with more inspiring words.

Fuckin Toodles