Venting in Fire's hangout spot

I've got so many projects to work on...

Corrupted Underground, CD-Sides, VS Sunset.exe, Fixable Stature mod...

SHHHHHHII-

Why can't I like ANYTHING else aside from a Bloody funny I a god hedgehog, I'm sick and tired of not being able to draw anything.

everything else looks dogshit.

I SHOULD HAVE AT LEAST A DECENT UNDERSTANDING FOR ANATOMY OR SOME SHIT.

BUT NOPE!

Okay...I watched a Psych2Go vid...or maybe a few...

I'm not self-diagnosing.

But I think...I may have some form of depression...

Almost everything they said was point blank period.

The drawing tablet is back up.

Now...TO KEEP THE LITTLE SHIT UP.

for a while

why can't I just stop drawing FOR A FUCKING MONTH.

EVERYTIME I SAY "I'm gonna stop drawing for around a month or more"

A FEW DAYS LATER, BAM! THE FUCKING URGE TO CREATE, AND IT LOOKS SHIT. RINSE AND REPEAT THR CYCLE AGAIN.

I'm getting near my limit.

Does anyone else punch theirselves when they get pissed off?

No? Just me?

Figures.

These thoughts are literally mine.

I have so little patience when I can't do something. (and this goes for ANYTHING I do)

Whyyyyy am I like this?!

Umm...I hate it.

I can't even hate it. I despise it. Like everything is so fucking wrong.

Yeah, I take back what I said about being better on phone. I'm just garbage.

So...is it bad I have a lot of insecurities?

Like, too many?