For the first time in a longer time I'm happy. I don’t know the reason at all. I can't begin to guess what it is. Something I have now something I got rid of? Ether way I'm happy I'm no longer suicidal. In fact I crave life. The world is sun shine and rainbows for me right now. I usually have to pretend I'm happy. But I actually am. Thank you to all my friends who helped me and my amazing followers who are still here despite everything. So this is Fox Guy Foxtail saying I'm smiling. :]