Hey, I am Hannah. Two years ago I dealt with a break up. If you've seen my old posts, you'd know the kind of headspace I was in. I felt unlovable, hated, ignored, and everything in between those. I cut myself, starved myself, hit myself, I hated myself. I used to talk in the mirror and tell myself I wasn't worth it. People told me, "It gets better."

Y'know what I said? "Yeah fucking right."

But I was wrong. Things do get better. So much better. I was hopeless. The only thing keeping me away from ending it was my fear of heights and low pain tolerance. But in that time I met a girl. That girl is now my girlfriend, who's proud that I'm still here. It's a long journey but it's posaible. Even when things get better, you're still recovering. I still get agonizing hunger pains if I don't eat breakfast or lunch at a proper time. I still say sorry more than I need to because I blame everything on me, even when I can't control it. But I'm better. I want to be here again.

I believe anyone can make that journey. It may take longer than you expected, but it will get better. One resource that helped me was music. Bands like Pierce The Veil made songs that made me feel heard. Let me know I'm not alone, and others have felt my pain. It's inportant to realize you're not alone. "Cause Everyone Hurts Sometimes," as said in Hold On Till May. You can find people who understand your pain. And if you can't, there's always the hotline. 988. I know how it can be to not want to call it, but do it. If you need it do it.

If you didn't take anything away from this, please try to remember people want you here. And if you think no one does, I do. Even if ive never met you, I dont want someone else to succumb to the pain. Please, stay.

Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better.