So, last night wasn't so much of a good night for me...my mom had a really bad panic attack. Like...almost an hour....and this was during dinner and even some time after.

It all started right when dinner was getting served, I told Karsten that I was going afk. He said okay. Then my mom just starts...crying. And then she was incoherent. She didn't even remember who my family was...it was like that for almost an hour...

The ambulance was called and I was told that since I'm 16, I had to go with her. Like seriously!!! I'm a fucking child!!! Fucking petrified of what is happening to my mom!!!! I can't muster the courage to do that shit!!!! Let alone the emotional strength.

I was texting Karsten the entire time this happened. He got me another app that we can talk on. But that's besides the point so I will not mention the app at all.

He comforted me. And I'm glad that he did. If I didn't text him, I would be more of an emotional wreck right now.

But anyways. While my mom was in her panic attack, the whole family just started arguing...for no fucking reason. Like every time my family argues. I stayed out of that because I don't want the drama on top of what fear I was experiencing.

And then my grandmother gets angry at my mom for something she cannot control.. And then had one of her epileptic seizures because she got pissed off...is this somehow my fault...? Maybe I did something wrong and sadly cannot undo my mistake...

But my mom and grandmother are normal now and everything is okay. Hopefully.

I'm done ranting, sorry for wasting your time.

-AnimeFan2.0