If I think about it hard enough, I could be replaced.

At anytime really. I could get replaced by a better friend online. Or my game's current popularity could either die down due to lost of interest, or another game.

That, combined with the fact I feel like I'm not a high priorety for anybody IRL my age.

Ik that sounds selfish but, in my 9 years of school. Not one time did I truley feel like I was wanted, by other people.

and the time I did feel like I mattered more, in 5th grade. I ruined my life in 6th grade, trying to be funny. But I just ended up being weird and annoying.

And I also kind of, forgot. What the diffrence is between sombody laughing with me, or at me. My mind usually goes to the latter, allways.

All life has taught me is that everything online is only temporary, whether it's friend or relation ships, popularity, ect.

But the main thing is that being happy online can and won't be permanete.

and that's why I'm scared to have my life be online alot. Cause if I was gone from the internet entierly. I wouldn't actually have like, real friends.

Sure I only really have online friends that ACTUALLY care about me (Love you guys), but if I didn't have them. I wouldn't be here.

I've been alone alot of my life, and I feel like if I get abandoned or replace again. I'll lose it.

This was pretty much just a rant. I don't feel the best rn. Well thanks for reading if you did get to this point though, love you!